Trust God's Timing
I raced through our condo, spraying and wiping every visible surface. I threw all the toiletries and clutter into the cabinets. In the kitchen, I crawled on my hands and knees into the corners, making sure that every inch of the floor was clean and shiny. Finally, I thought, I can now trust God’s timing. After weeks of no activity, a real estate agent had requested a showing!
Ready to move
This was the answer to my prayers. If you’ve been following this blog, you know that my husband Elijah and I have decided to leave our jobs and sell our condo so we can move away from the crowded, expensive city and buy a home in a location with a lower cost of living. Then we plan to start our family and adopt foster children as Christians. I will also pursue my 20-year-old dream of becoming a full-time writer.
Before any of this can take place, we need to sell our condo. As I scrubbed and sprayed my way through the rooms, I sent prayers up to God. Please grant us a quick and profitable sale of the condo with an honest buyer today. I want to find our new city. I want to adopt our children. I want to work on this blog full-time.
Once the condo was sparkling, Elijah and I took a walk to get out and allow the agent to show the clients around. The agent and buyer never showed up. They didn’t even bother to cancel. Although I was disappointed, I tried to be optimistic. “Well at least the condo looks great!”I told Elijah.
We received another showing request on Wednesday. This is it! I thought with excitement. I raced home early from work to clean again, filled with hope. One hour after they were supposed to come, the agent and buyers cancelled. We received another request for Thursday. This is it! I thought again. Then the agent cancelled. I wanted to trust God’s timing, but three cancellations in a row was a let down. All that work, all that cleaning, and rushing out of the office early was for nothing.
I felt defeated. What about my dreams of being a writer? What about our dreams of adopting children? What if the condo takes a year to sell? Will we ever get to pursue our dreams? Could I really trust God’s timing? Our friendly real estate agent Min kept an upbeat and positive attitude despite the let-downs. I smiled when I received her encouraging messages. God reminded me that He gave me friends who care for me. Though I am usually shy about asking for prayer, He told me to reach out to Madison, my dear friend and sister in Christ who leads a Friday Bible study at Capital Group, where we work together. Madison reminded me of Paul’s words: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” - Romans 8:28.
When Madison shared this verse, God reminded me that He is orchestrating everything behind the scenes. All I have to do is love Him. I realized that if the creator of the universe is on my side, then I no longer have any need to worry over how long it takes for the condo to sell. I trust God’s timing and that there is a reason that the agents cancelled last-minute. “It could be that God was protecting you from a dishonest buyer,” Madison told me. She lifted my spirits by sending me messages and reminding me she was praying for me.
The next day, I woke up with a new attitude. We own a beautiful condo in a safe neighborhood. Elijah and I have been completely happy living here, along with my adopted sister in Christ Hephzibah, who is here from India. I am content with my job as an administrative assistant at Capital Group, a respected mutual fund company. Though I am excited to start the next chapter of life in a new city and adopt our foster children as Christians, I trust God’s timing as He has reminded me to take pause and glorify Him in giving thanks for all He has given me.
“Thy will be done”
We have another showing request for today, April 14th at 12:30pm. Though I am hopeful, I no longer have the same sense of urgency that we have to sell the condo right now.
Instead of praying for a quick sale so we can move on from our life here, I now pray a different prayer, which my friend Chris from the Capital Group Bible studies reminded me to pray. It is straight from the Lord’s prayer and exactly what Jesus tells us to pray: “Thy will be done.” I trust God’s timing. I want my heart and God’s heart to desire the same goals. If He truly wants Elijah and me to adopt foster children as Christians, He will make a way for it to happen.
When the time is right, God will send an honest buyer. And until then, I will live each day here in our condo grateful for this beautiful safe home that is our shelter, and take every opportunity to enjoy our walks around the lake!